Because everyone needs some confession time in cyber space, so, admittedly:
- My itunes has been up on my computer for going on a week. In the small times of the day when it's just me, I've, admittedly, had my Christmas playlist jammin' in my background. Ahhh, I can smell the evergreen.
- I've been praying for God to help me extend grace, rather than frustration, to my offspring, because, admittedly, this no nap thing has made me a cranky mother lately. (Could it be possible that he has napped today?! Let's not breathe for fear the dream may end!)
- Take a breath, you will need it. Admittedly, I have. not. couponed. since we've been in Texas. My heart hurts. Time to get back on the bandwagon.
- I want snow. If you are confused on this, please refer back to bullet #1. Thank you.
- Admittedly, I have not dusted one time since we've moved in. Maybe I should add that to my to do list, for the week, shall we? :)
- Admittedly - as if it's any surprise, I am yearning just to be in the swing of things. I'm tired of looking at homes, I'm tired of talking about what we can afford, I just want to know all of those things, for God to highlight a big mls listing and put a huge neon sign that says, "This is where I want you." Is that too much to ask?
- Admittedly - I was up until past 1:00 a.m. last night looking over that budget. And also - admittedly, though it's not to any doings of our own, but we pay well over $800 in insurance, between health, life, auto and homeowners... $800. Though I hope we ever need it, it makes my heart hurt to know that $800 a month, $9600 a year, goes towards things we may. never. use. (But the 'may' makes you pay it.)
- How's this for my last one? Admittedly - it's been a long day, and I'm tired, and I have 3 magazines sitting next to me who have been waiting over a week to be read... and I'm not going to dust, or straighten or do laundry... I'm going to read them, and maybe take a nap. Why? Because, ladies and gentlemen, I think he may be sleeping...
--- A
You're going through a time of transition (which is never easy), you're caring full-time for two little ones, you're still trying to become comfortable with your new church, town, and people, and you probably don't have nearly the help you had when you were here. All that to say--cut yourself some serious slack, you're doing much better than you think you are. If you need Christmas music to make it through, go for it! There is always time for dusting and coupons--sometimes you just have to do what you have to do to stay sane until life settles down and you really feel like you're home. Praying for you!
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